Evening everyone. I normally don't get on this late but something has been on my mind and I want to get it out. I'm at the later stage in my life (40) and am just getting my shit together. I feel like its getting too late to get the things I want in life. I had the opportunity to get someone in my life tonight (one of the things I really want) but instead I pushed them away. Im trying to figure out why im doing this if i don't even pursue my desires as they present themselves. I don't know, the situation really messed with me for some reason. I don't really show a lot of emotion, but I can't hold back the depression right now.