I relapsed a week ago and fucked up real bad. I lied to one of my girlfriend’s friends and said she didn’t support me when I wrecked my car. She did support me. Now she feels betrayed because I lied about her and to her friend nonetheless. I don’t remember saying any of it. I don’t know why I ever would. I get drunk and I lie about everything for no reason. Now all I want to do is drink to forget about the fact that my chest feels crushed with guilt and the knowledge that I hurt her and things will probably never be okay again.