I am still trying to figure this out. Truly the only way I have had any success with staying clean and sober is to stay around like minded. people who have like, Jelly Roll’s lyrics cry out “suffered the same defeat” because clearly we have not came to this app “on a winning streak”who knows maybe this is the time. I certainly want to believe that it is my time. I am 64 in August and have been chasing this thing we call recovery since my early 20’s. In that time period I have mustard 4 years 7 months one time in this crazy life I have lived and that was only because I was on felony probation for my 5th DWI and was gravely afraid of being locked up. Other than that I have stayed cleaned for stints of 2 years a few times over these years only by attending 12 step recovery groups and trying to work those steps which are strongly “higher power” related and also what helps me was the one day at a time piece. This is the first time I ever tried something like this app so it is another sign for me that I will go to any lengths to stay away from the first one. These demons that have ruled my mind and broken my heart and tore out my soul and convinced me over and over again that “awe what’s the use” or that just “one more” could not hurt. Today I want to stand for something rather than fall for nothing. It is a WE thing and not an I thing. I am up early again but today will be much different because in my room across from my bed is a set of bunk beds where my grandson is fast asleep. This is most definitely a promise of the 12 steps programs coming true in my life and a blessing from God to me. So I will keep coming back and Lord willing this will be another 24 hrs. of sober/clean time in the books. I am brand new here and am long winded at times so please forgive me. I thank my friend who sent me this app though I don’t know her SOBO name yet. I chose my username because I am tired of living in the dark. 🙏 HABD🙏😇🕊️ Sunshine🌞🌞🌞