I knew I’ve had a problem for a long time. I’ve lost my license, job and potentially my house as well. Not to mention the amount of friends and family, unless they are dealing with the same struggles. I’ve been through a lot in my life but this is the biggest struggle to move past as I was using substances in order to “not think or feel” about it. I’ve seen/heard stories and seen how well others have done. Why does it feel so impossible for me to accomplish too. I can’t seem to deal with reality at all and crave something to numb it out. Even though it feels worse after I do