For the past decade I have spent every weekend getting blackout drunk. At first it was fun, being young and dumb. But being young can’t last forever. Over the last ten years, my binge drinking has ruined me. I’ve messed up relationships, friendships, family bonds, my job, my whole life. All it has done is take take take. Enough is enough. I am about to turn 30 and I cannot let it take another decade of my life. I want to heal and learn to deal with my mental health issues without using alcohol as an escape. I want to build a healthy life for myself, quit the self-loathing and cycle of shame and embarrassment. I am not me when I am drunk. I become something completely unrecognisable.