i relapsed about a year ago, a few days, maybe just one day, shy of a year and a half sober. and i just haven’t been able to get it back together since. the longest i’ve gone is maybe a few weeks, many small stretches before an inevitable relapse— it never sticks no matter how badly i want it to. i just wanted to get it off my chest. it’s so hard and confusing knowing that i was able to make it so far and now i just keep fucking it up every time i try.