I’ve been smoking weed since I was younger to cope with the abuse going on. It carried on during highschool during abusive relationship and dealing with my parents addiction. I’ve tried stoping and had success before but something always creeps up that makes me run back to weed to stop my head from thinking so much. I know that’s suppressing it but I can’t deal with the thoughts of all the trauma. I feel hopeless trying to quit because everyone laughs it off knowing I won’t but I just want to feel like me again, I want to feel alive and not just surviving.