So I'm starting over again. Things with the person I was seeing didn't work out because I just don't know if they were trying as hard as I am but I made the decision to leave and I think that will help me. Things became unsafe with this person so I just had to end it. Asking for a prayer request because it's been incredibly difficult deciding to leave and be on my own. I've reached out to several people I know from AA and am attending as many virtual meetings as I feel I need. Thanks everyone for reading!