I I’ve been struggling with my alcoholism. I want to get better. I do get better  The only last last two weeks and then I’m back on some alcoholic shit and it sucks and it’s hard and I don’t know how to stop without needing help. I just wanna be good. I do but it’s hard. It’s really hard because I’m gonna go right now and right now feels sore peaceLl but I get it. It’s because of my own demon that I can be OK face by myself, but it takes time. My