I've been sober 3 months now, and it's been 3 and a half months since my boyfriend died unexpectedly. I don't feel proud or grateful yet of being sober, and I'm still having more hard days than good. I'm still trying to stay positive and I've started go to AA, I've been to 3 so far and I feel like the odd one out. It's always older people than me. I'm 27 and all of these people are over 40 with years under their belt. Sometimes I feel like I have no who understands the pain im going through with my sobriety. My value for staying sober is my family. But when we fight it gets hard. Im still trying to stay positive, and stay sober for today. But today is a hard one, but I also know not every day will feel like this.