if i can be honest.. i’m not sure what season i am in. it’s been so tough all i do is cry every day and night. i use to struggled with depression and sh-ing and recently those thoughts have been coming back. i’m so sad and i feel like sometimes the Lord isn’t here and i’m asking what am i doing wrong ?! and i am hurt. i find myself being upset with the Lord and not having any friends i just hate it here and i’m really starting to hate life. if you read all this - thanks for listening. since no one else does.