The mind is a dangerous place… and a powerful one. I’m going on 8 years of sobriety from alcohol and I couldn’t be more grateful. But my rescue from it truly was a rescue. It was completely spiritual and it’s what started my walk with Christ.. but this time it’s a different addiction.. and God isn’t taking this one away like he did the alcohol… there’s so much in my life I don’t understand. But trusting him has never lead me wrong. Trusting myself, fails me everytime. But this one is a real beast that I’m up against… a couple weeks ago I was taking 135mg (rough estimate) of 7-oh tabs.. I’m down to 50 but striving to stay below it.. the cold sweats, lack of ability to regulate body temp… the emotions and increased body aches, it’s more brutal than past things I recovered from.. this reminds me that in our journey it’s progress over perfection. Let’s just get through the next 60seconds for now okay? Hang on for one more minute with me, cause I damn sure can’t do this on my own, and you shouldn’t have to either.