Ive discovered something, pretty pathetic actually about me today. I found an outdoor "gym" im using and I asked myself why. My health means little to me. Im 40 so im not getting back into my prime, so why? Same reason im staying sober, going to counseling and treatment: im trying to become a person other people want to be around, both physically and mentally. I know I should do this for myself, but I really don't like myself that much. in my journey to find a partner, friends or whatever... yeah whatever