Alcohol helped me numb my feelings and high anxiety when my husband would have seizures. He has complex focal seizures. Today he had another one and I had to sit with my emotions. It was really tough. I want to go hide in a corner and cry but I have kids who depend on me to be happy and make them feel okay too. It’s going to be a tough road ahead staying sober and non medicated. It’s easier to numb. I really miss that feeling. I don’t miss drinking but I miss escaping.