2 months sober from coke, really proud of myself, got a good routine back pretty quick and got a busy job that keeps me occupied. One night on it would ruin everything yet theres that voice in my head that tells me it’s not that deep, that how bad can it be really? I take methylphenidate for adhd, that’s had similar affects and it’s hard to convince myself they are literally not the same thing, one is controlled and the other will kill you? I don’t think I will use again right now but the voices are strong. I had to cut off my friend bc she was a bad influence but I still think about her…