So I saw my kids into the treasure hunt I planned out for them. It was pretty fun and then we played a card game and all went by so fast though. I only got to see them for a few hours. My oldest daughter was supposed to stay the night, but she changed her mind because she said she felt terrible. I could tell she was struggling with feeling down. I found out that she starts therapy Tuesday, which is good because I know it’ll help her, but I felt frustrated that her dad didn’t feel the need to loop me in with that. I’m just tired of feeling left out and like he’s constantly trying to erase me like I don’t matter and like I’m not their mother. I was really excited about Callie coming and staying the night so when she told me she wasn’t, I was really disappointed. I had to hold back my tears cause I didn’t want her to see. I was upset in that upset her. But I’m feeling really disappointed rejected sad. I really wanted to drink, but I didn’t …still wanting to drink, but know that it won’t solve anything and that’s what got me in this situation in the first place.